Today

I think weekends are bad for me. There is too much time, too much time to think and too much time to worry

These last few days I have been working, and I feel pretty normal, like no growth in the head normal. Still, I am counting down the days until surgery. Both Aaron and I are ready to move on to the next phase. Sometimes I feel like maybe I am overacting. Is this really a big thing? I mean, really?  I will be fine after surgery, just some possible side effects.  It could be worse, right?

Then I tell myself that brain surgery is probably the biggest type of surgery out there.  Healing time is 3 months of not being yourself. It sounds like a big deal.

Right now, I am not so afraid of things. I have to trust myself. I am usually a pretty positive hard working person. I have to think that I will be able to deal with whatever happens.

That is where I'm at right now.