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Magic can be a pretty powerful thing here. Good thing Franny knows magic too.

 Do you see all that sun in the picture?  It not only looks great, but it feels warm and cozy here. The weather seemed to set my spirit free, and suddenly I started thing about things that should happen AFTER radiation, not sure enduring it.  I haven't been able to see this far in a long time, and I am sure the weather has nudged me in the right direction.

 Things have been so nice the kids have been playing outside. These pictures are from a little adventure to our local park (with a neighbor friend). Being outside really makes the kids happy. After I come inside from being outside, there is this great satisfaction present.  I don't know why, but I always welcome it and look forward to many days when I have the energy to be productive out there.

 This last Friday, I felt the worst I ever had. I was so weary, had a headache and nausea. I just wanted everything to go away.  Over the weekend, things seemed to get a little better, but now that I am in the cycle of daily radiation, I expect to feel horrible again soon (although today is okay)

 I am now officially working part time. I go to work in the morning, go to radiation, and then home. This has really helped me be a productive part of the family. Last night I took the kids to the library and today I was able to bring Frances to art class.  This is the important stuff that I have been missing.

 While I have been on radiation, I am not supposed to take multi-vitamins or drink juices. This is because I should not have any extra anti-oxidants right now. The radiation is causing damage and the anti-oxidants might prevent this.  After the radiation is done, the damage is done, but it does take time for my healthy cells that got incidentally zapped to heal themselves.  I want to give my body everything it needs and I want to heal quickly.

 This means that I should start to exercise when I get the energy (or force myself when I can), rest when I need to, and eat lots of fruits and veggies. Looking back, I wonder if that is why I am always hungry for fruits?  I've been thinking about green smoothies for a few days, and I think I want to try them. My biggest problem with juices is that they take away important stuff when they strain the fruit. If you have a fancy blender, you can blend all of it and then drink it.  They might still be a little high in sugar, but maybe if it is watered down or has lots of vegetables, then it is okay. At this point, I want to try it.

 I think I will try a smoothie every day for a month. After that month, I will mentally check in with myself to see if it made any difference. If not, well then I wasted my money on a fancy blender, but if so, then, well, I helped myself.

 Aaron has agreed to try it too. Really, what does he have to lose?  I will make the smoothie in the morning. All he has to do is drink it, and he is not really a picky eater. I am trying to convince my mom to try it too. She is more choosy about her food. We'll see.

 I like the thought of giving myself a boost to heal.

 Now, all I have to do is finish radiation and buy a blender.

 Oh, also, now that spring is out, I am thinking about starting some seeds indoors. I have a good collection of seeds, so I will just use what we have and not buy anything new. Last year, the dears ate most of my hard work.  I am going to put a fence around the area to prevent that this year.

 I specifically asked Henry what he wanted to plant in our garden, and he said flowers.  I was hoping for a vegetable, but flowers sound good to me. We tried to plant some flowers in the yard last year, but I think the soil was too hard and they never got going. Maybe I will try a planter or an urn this year.

 With only two treatments left, I am thinking of what I want to do to celebrate.

Jump shot

 I have thought and thought about it, but I think the best way is to just surround myself with family and do nothing.  For in nothing, I am doing something.