I've Become Busy

My life is getting back to normal. I still get headaches and have more fatigue than normal, but I FEEL more myself. That is a good thing. Sometimes I think back and say to myself "did that really happen" but then I see the huge scar on my head and I know it did. It did happen. I even try to remember how scared I was, but I don't get scared anymore. I want to remember what I cared about in that time and what I feared, so I can face it and live accordingly.

The truth is that the most important thing was my family.  I thought about Frances and Henry a lot. I was sad that maybe I would not be there to grow up, but I also didn't want to traumatize them with my illness. Luckily I am not going down that road.

Instead, I get to write this while Christmas music is streaming, my husband is putting up the tree, my son is reading quietly and my daughter is munching on a graham cracker.  Yes, I am fortunate.

I was able to have three whole days of Thanksgiving, and it was wonderful. It started out with a Turkey Trot. Henry and Frances ran an indoor race.  It was Frances' first time in a race and she absolutely loved it. It was hard for her to wait until they said go. She had a couple of false starts and she might have gotten a little head start when she finally did go.  More races are definitely in her future. Henry did good too. He was very serious about the whole event, but I know he liked it. Aaron ran a really good race and placed 17th in his age group. This is really good for him.

As for me, I did pretty good. I have only ran twice since the injury and it was on the treadmill.  I wasn't sure how the race would go.  I had the plan of running until I warmed up and then walk/run the rest. That is exactly what I did and I ended up only walking three times. When I started, I noticed the world was bobbing a little more than I was used to, but it was okay. Then about half way through I really had to use the bathroom and that took up all my concentration. Looking back, it was probably a good distraction. When I crossed the finish line, I felt great! I didn't feel exhausted nor did I have a headache.  I quickly found a bathroom and then found Aaron.

After the race we went to my parents house and the celebration commenced. It ended yesterday and was a fun time. After all the excitement of the holidays, I ended up taking a 2 hour nap and then going to bed at the normal time. I guess I'm not quite normal, but close.