A Hard Day

I thought yesterday was going to be fun, but it was hard. Mainly, it was really boring. 

It's really hard to figure out what to do with myself. 

The morning started out great with some Mall walking and watching Frances and Ruby play. I was enjoying just observing life, living in the moment, watching the girls get happy, excited over and over again. Then the moment was gone. I came back home exhausted.  Really, too exhausted to do anything, but just lay down and NOT sleep.

I've been weaning down on my steroids, and with the half life of the medication, I think the wean is in full effect. Also, I stopped taking the Percocet. Yesterday I was really achy in my neck and jaw. Even the lightest touch was tender. The other thing was that my asthma acted up a little. I'm sure my body was just loving the exhangenous (sp?) steroids and was sad to see it go.  I had to start up my Flovent.  Today I'm doing better with the achiness and the breathing, so hopefully things are getting better.

Last night also I felt like I was on the roller coaster that wouldn't stop. Every time I closed my eyes to go to bed, my body felt in motion. I was trying to ride it out, but I couldn't. Eventually I woke up Aaron and tried to get into a better position where the rocking would stop. And, eventually it did stop, but it wasn't fun. I didn't really sleep that well.

So now today is a new day.  Most of the day yesterday was just waiting for time to continue.  It's not a good living. I need to think about what I can do, and what I can control and try to actually enjoy this time.

Even though my head is in a fog, I still think clearly.  I can write, I can plan. Pretty soon Aaron and I will be on our own for meals, maybe I need to start thinking about that. Also, I bet I can sew, right? I can knit most of the time now. I finished Frances' Halloween costume, but I still need to work on Henry's a.k.a. Shadow Link.  I will have my mom bring some puzzles over and we will continue our walks. Maybe if I have a normal daily routine, then things will get better. I am going to try to start getting a daily routine.  I will let everyone know how I do.